A few weeks ago I discovered that our new shiny Capturing Gratitude website would not be ready in time for November 1st; the planned launch date for the project. It turns out that the developer I hired for the job was not only months behind schedule, he was also doing a not-very-good job.
This is the first time I haven't built my own website, and I'm feeling out of my depths handing my 'baby' over to someone else. I thought my doubt was about my own control issues (!), but it turns out my intuition was correct.
So last month I found myself with a website that didn't work properly, way overdue, having spent more money on it than I intended and so close to the beginning of November that it wasn't funny. I had interviews lined up ready to talk about the launch, and I was exhausted from staying up late and working weekends trying to get it happening.
I was feeling so overwhelmed by the project. And the thought that came into my head was 'I don't want to do this anymore.' It just felt too big and too hard.
Then the wisdom of iRest yoga nidra came to me....... these emotions and thoughts are simply messengers. They're not here to make me shut down and run away. They're bringing valuable information to me, to help me to re-evaluate the situation. Now if only I could work out what that message was........
Thankfully my husband reminded me that I was the only one that who really minded if the project launched in November or not, and as soon as he said it I knew he was right (damn it!). The tension and overwhelm and confusion dropped, and it was clear. I could postpone the project. I didn't have to cancel it or go ahead with an inferior website.
I'm so grateful for the wisdom of my body and mind in helping me reassess the situation. And I'm grateful to my husband for pointing out what now seems like the obvious (but didn't at the time!). And I'm so grateful for the Capturing Gratitude team, Loren Jackson, Brook McCarthy & Angie McCarthy for their support in the delay, and to all my friends (some of whom I've never met) who have been sending me beautiful emails, text messages and Facebook messages of love and support.
So I set aside the project for a week, and spent the days relaxing with my family, walking on the beach, sleeping in, reading a novel and reminding myself of my previous blog post. I just needed to clear my head and rest.
And I'm happy to say I'm now on the other side. I'm feeling excited and enthusiastic about the project again, and I'm ready get it AWESOME by February 2014.
I've been funding the project myself up until now, however to get it across the finish line I need some help.
We've just launched a crowd funding campaign to get Capturing Gratitude back on it's feet. The wonderful Capturing Gratitude contributors have banded together to give you some really awesome prizes. There are yoga classes, signed copies of books, online courses, one on one sessions, yoga and meditation downloads, DVDs and more.
Here's how it works....
- Check out the Pozible Capturing Gratitude page
- Decide how much you'd like to pledge and choose your prize
- If we meet our target, your payment will be processed and your prize will on it's way to your door (or inbox)
- We all celebrate! Yay! And Capturing Gratitude gets a beautiful new online home! Yay!
Here's a little clip I made for the Pozible crowd funding campaign....
If you'd like to donate to Capturing Gratitude you can do so here.
If you'd like to sign up to participate in Capturing Gratitude in 2014 (and keep up to date with the progress over the coming months), leave me your email address here.